Friday, October 29, 2010 @1:23 AM
you turn me off totally.
so sick.
yucks.
what are you trying to do this time round?
eeyerr.
so sick in the brain and pain in the ass.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010 @2:27 AM
im tired.
physically and mentally.
nevermind, i will walk this path all by myself.
since no one support me in whatever i do.
but i know my friends support me.
maybe some. or just a few.
i feel so sick and tired.
really.
i really wish i can close his case tomorrow.
Please.
i really wish i can have some blessings to close that case.
to give me the confident and motivation to carry on.
its really okay if my family members dont give me the support.
ah fuck lah.
since when did i ever get support from people close to me.
i mean really close ones.
one by one leaving.
why not you try how i feel.
no one will really understand how my heart feels.
i can say im strong already.
i need some strength from some supernatural power really.
too much, its too much.
i like wang lee hom.
haha so random.
xin tiao the song so nice.
so many nice one.
"how many question mark can two hearts have?
how much tears have we shed for the thing called LOVE?"
ilybyctlm.
Sunday, October 24, 2010 @4:08 PM
it hurts suddenly.
pain.
have you feel it before?
pain that can leads to numb?
Mum on the phone with father's sister-in-law, talking about my father's death.
Now then they get to know that the fact is my father is dead.
what is family? why must hide? hide the fact that my father is dead.
and why must come and ask about him now when he is going to be dead for 2 years.
i may seem okay when my father passed away, but im not. Same to my dog. Same to her.
if you know me well, sometimes i just have to put on an act.
so painful.
have you experience it before?
less than 2 years, your father passed away, next your beloved dog and next your loved one leave you?
you think im made from what? metal?
I dont dare to think about it.
Cause i dont want to feel it inside.
Am i not strong enough?
Its too much.
Sometimes, i hope someone can come and save me.
i thought, you at least will be there for me.
You said you will. But you left.
You gave me another pain to endure.
I'm not hoping you to come back.
So much pressure.
Thinking back to ite life, FUCK YOU MISS CHONG.
heartless teacher.
I wont forget what you said to me when my father passed away.
fuck you really.
forcing me to say when i dont want to say, saying things to me when you know its hurt so bad.
i believe this blog, no one is reading it.
Cause im gone for so long and back.
3 years i guess.
its good, cause this is where i can write how i actually feeling.
All i want now is to be happy.
But the simplest thing is the hardest to get.
I dare not hope anymore.
Monday, October 18, 2010 @11:00 AM
sigh.
its like coming back to me again, the feeling.
i dont want it.
i dont deny that i missed you so much this few days.
yet there's nothing i can do.
although i thought im over you.
but i really hate to see you in my dreams or whatever.
cause i dont want to feel what im feeling now.
i told myself not to see your fb, i didnt.
but i have the urge to see, but i stop myself.
i got the urge to message you, but i dont have the courage.
cos you already told me that you dont love me anymore.
i feel so useless cos i cant do anything now.
i believe that you have already fall for someone else.
ARGH.
Felt so empty and useless.
sigh.
Friday, October 15, 2010 @3:47 AM
hello air once again. haha!
my ears are so painful. Like as if my ear drums going to burst like that.
One more day to my CES exams. Haven't finish studying. Rusty already my brain. So many formulas. Like worse than accounting. Nevermind lah. Try my best can already. Just hope i can pass lor.
This few days so sick lor. Dont have proper sleep at all. Worst is like i had a bad dream last night, so real,so....., but when i woke up, its like BAAAM! Dying soon like that. I dont want to dream of all this. it stopped for like 2 weeks but suddenly it just came back. TA-MA-DE LOR.
Went Thai steamboat with winnie, Law, Exy & her bobby yesterday. Not bad, quite nice.
Head towards cheesecake cafe at siglap. The place so nice! Always pass by there when i always take Bus40 home when im in secondary school but never get to go in and try. I also like the cakes there, quite yummy. i love to eat cakes lor. haha! The place really very niceeeeeeee. So funny when bobby scratches his eyebrow when he headache. everyone LOLS yesterday.
I went cheesecake cafe again today with tingyi,celeste, kally & bf
i went there for the cake and they went there to see that good looking guy. LOLS.
But too bad, he's not there today.
Super tired now.
I hope i dont have you for all the nights anymore.(since you did not come for 2 weeks already)
ZHOU-GONG please help me. haha.
goodnight air!
Loves.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010 @3:16 AM
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either! |
| Being Alone | |
| Looked down on | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Death | |
| Disappointment | |
| Commitment | |
What is your True Fear?
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@1:23 AM
hello to the air!
like how many years later eh? so many things happened during this 2 years i can say. happy ones and definitely painful ones. But its okay, that's part and parcel of life isn't it? We need to grow stronger every year as we grow old. So Jia you! As time passed by, we will tends to put aside all the unhappy memories and keep the happy memories deep in our hearts. Sometimes i find it quite silly, when you think back about it, i mean the happy times, it makes you smile and tell yourself, that's enough. Love. What's love? i dont think anyone can really tell us what's love. Maybe till when we grow old with a partner, by then we will understand when our hair's white and someone holding your hand still. Aww, so sweet.
Loves,
myself.
