omg.
can someone make sushi for me?

i got lotsa pics.
shall post it when i feel like it.

this year, i just want one thing.
its easy to get it but it really have to depends on oneself.
its just a word.

rainy days,
one word, sucks.

makes me lazy, and sad.
lols. why?
i also dont know.
i prefer sunshine, very wen-luan. =)

i dont have enough time.
so many things not done yet.

if you were to given one choice to choose to have happy moments or normal moments, which one will you choose?

i would choose normal? ha!
cause happy dont last.

fuck! bad mood.
ayhpn?wii?cyswmiwtk.iiyeg?dylmn

Bon jovi - i'll be there for you

i guess this this you're really leaving
i heard your suitcase say goodbye
and as my broken heart lies bleeding
you say true love it's suicide

you say you've cried a thousand rivers
and now you're swimming for the shore
you left me drowning in my tears
and you won't save me anymore

and now i'm praying to God you'll give another chance, girl

[chorus]
i'll be there for you
these five words i swear to you
when you breathe i wanna be the air for you
i'll be there for you
i'd live and i'd die for you
steal the sun from the sky for you
words can't say what a love can do
i'll be there for you

i know you know we've had some good times
now they have their own hiding place
i can promise you tomorrow
but i can't buy back yesterday

and baby you know my hands are dirty
but i wanted to be your valentine
i'll be the water when you get thristy, baby
when you get drunk, i'll be the wine

[chorus]

and i wasn't there when you were happy
i wasn't there when you were down
i didn't mean to miss you birthday, baby
i wish i'd seen you blow those candles out

[chorus]

went 85 market for dinner with exy,winnie and bev.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the one's who don't.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

yesyes, as if we people think/do this way.
maybe we do think this way but we cant bring ourselves to believe it this way when shits happens.

AM I RIGHTTTTTTTT TO SAY SOOOO?
but i like to read all this kind of things. lols.
contradicting huh.
girls are just like this.

damn!
PMS SUCKS BIG TIME.

many things running through my mind.
damn it.
things dont always go the way you want it.
its all opposite.
that's life! live with it.

school gonna start in less than 5 days.
that sucks.
nothing's done. fuck it.

steamboat for kaixin birthday this saturday.
good! its the hoody gathering again.(someone call bev up kay?)
im gonna make some desserts for you guys!
its my first time making it, hope that its going to be nice.
should i bake a cake for you, kaixin?
let's see my mood.

slience is mystery.

feeling very sick now.
dont feel like talking, no appeitite.

anyway, was suppose to meet AUNTIE KEN with ah may they all for lunch at TM yesterday but i overslept, as usual. then met them around 5plus cos wanna catch the 10 promises to my dog movie but end up when we going to buy the tickets the show alr about to start, so we dun wanna miss a small little part then forget it lor. then that exy go and Q up until infront infront, then in the end have to squeeze out. haha.

i had cravings for cheeseburger happy meal, so went macdonalds.
after macdonalds, accompany ah may go century square walk around.
then this exy became crazy.
i think it started with the gummy sweets i gave it to her.
she finish the sweets then dont wanna throw into rubbish bin, keep wanting to pretend pretend put inside my bag. but her skills sucks. lols. lazy bum.
then slowly the both of us went crazy.
auntie ken and winnie say both of us are the childish ones.
yah, they very ADULT. lols.

we decided to bid goodbye to them.
going to kbox but exy not coming cause she got exams the next morning.
but kept asking her, NI DE XIN YANG YANG MAH?LAI LAH. haha.
so end up 3 of us.
went kallang leisure park kbox.
sing sing sing, sing until SIAN.
was quite turn off a few moments.
but ken say dont like this, dont let this affect you cause it will affect them as well.
so i tried.
WAH! THEN THAT WINNIE! BESTTTTT!
CAN EVEN SLEEP IN KTV ROOM WHEN THE MUSIC IS SO LOUD!
PEI FU HER!
so left me and ken sing.
then there comes a song name"hai hai ren shen"old song cos got those uncle and auntie.
somemore is HOKKIEN SONG. then i say auntie ken yr song ah?yr 430pm auntie show song? she say is winnie one.
shocking. but i think winnie wanna find the mayday"ren shen hai hai" lols.
then tt auntie ken say she dont know that song, in the end! come show off her hokkien language!
and sing out. wah buey tahan this auntie ken. after that still say, zihui i sing u one song. JI BA BAN! NASI WA WOO JI BA BAN!so funny! esp the spagetti!
sing sing sing, then suddenly winnie wake up ask us, WHY YOU ALL SO NOISY?
WE STUN THERE.. erm ktv suppose to be noisy mah, and you sleeping leh! dots.
haha after singing, we left then this kbox manager was standing there cos wanna close the exit door then we walk out then i think he's a malaysian and he talk so fast!

he say" xiao jie zai jian,man zhou......."
then i heard him say" WU CI MA HEI, MAN MAN ZHOU!"
then i turn to ken and ask, why he say tt huh?
then ken tell me what he say.
okay, my hearing problems.

walk out of leisure park, went macdonalds and talk.
do some catching up with winnie.
her shatec friends, oh not friends, classmates very lame and childish.
but the F4 part was funny.
whereby, this group of girls keep saying them eh F4 F4.
then winnie start singing F4 song, ''pei ni chu kan liu xing yu,luo zai ze di chew shang''
alot of things lah.

then we wait for the macdonalds breakfast.
bought it,ate it, cab home.
almost vomited on the bed this morning.
so no energy when i woke up.

oh yah wendy!
ken now is call AUNTIE KEN.
i call her that and she respond.
know why?
cause she sibei auntie.
yday her maid pass her a gucci plastic bag inside got sweater all that then she carry it by her shoulders, that one nvm. then we say her like the HDB TAI TAI, the aiyoyo lao shi. lols.
she listens to old hokkien songs. and she watch 430pm auntie show, you shld noe tt taiwan show.
then come to the worse!
i saw her most girlie side yday!
damn. she want me to delete away some part of my blog but i dont want so she "ahhh...hmm..huhhh..plsss..." tehhhhhhh leh.
then i told her, ni hen bu shi he leh. lols.
last time exy, now auntie ken.
then at macdonalds she cold then she take out the PINK shawl and wrap around herself.
dots.-.-''
more like auntie.
so ken, you are now auntie ken, no more ah ken.
haha. so adult ah? say we childish somemore lorrrrrr.

i scare ken while she wanna take pic of this eel. lols.

ken's first fish.



monday-
exy wanna have dinner with hoody at 85 market. but in the end, kaixin no mood cos argue with her cutest gf. lols. winnie say will tell me again when by the time i think she already fall asleep. so the three of us went bedok interchange instead for the curry fishhead exy wanna eat. reached bedok, ken say francis meeting us. so we went walking around then met him. went to eat the curry fishhead. the curry is spicy one lor! to me only lah. i cant really take spicy stuff, somemore outside leh, dont like to LIU-PI-TI. then after that went to have desserts at hawker cos francis want to eat. then we sat there and francis start telling us ghost stories. its true stories kay, that happened to his friends. by the time he say finish, alreay like 12am, kaixin wanna meet us. so we went prata shop at her house there.

met her there, we talk talk talk until she say later her two friends coming. *toot* and *toot toot*?
then she ask me whether if i rmb our school the *toot*? that butch? then i think think think. then she say the cca is production one, den i think i know. but when she came, shes not the one i thought she is. -.-''

then! after a while, we was like asking each other some jokes and things. talk until quite okay okay. then that AH KEN keep asking me! eh faster drink finish your drink leh and go. but a few times i didnt really bother her. lols. then until quite a fewwww times she keep asking me to go, then okay lor. bid farewell.

then ken say i walk so slow. so i run and suddenly drop her bad of things. lols
they ran also. after that, ken say she have something to tell me.
then i thought its some random things. so i just orh!
then she say you know that *toot toot* is my ex-gf?
THEN I WAS LIKE .....HUHHHHH?~!!>!?!?!
KNS. no wonder keep asking me to go.
then i laughhhhh. i was like so last time you two, PB?
but no lah, PL i think. lols.

reached ken house, she went to bake her cookies at around 2 am. -.-''
me and exy watch the YI GE HAO PAPA.
in the end, ken cannot make her cookies cos she put the butter too much.
so 3 of us watched tgt. but ken went to sleep later cos she CMI alr.
left exy and me. watch watch watch.
then got a few times she already CMI, wanna go sleep but i beg her accompany me to watch cos left abit more. lols. then so funny, got one time she suddenly turn to me with that pek-cek face like i make her cannot sleep for hundred hours. then i laugh. but in the end i finish the show by myself.

went up to sleep.
the next day... HOHO!
GUESS HOW ME AND KEN WAKE UP!
THAT EXY AGAIN!
last time sleep with her, always say EH, LETS GO FOR BREAKFAST.
NOW! CHANGE LIAO.
sleep until so nice. then she suddenly uses her finger and POKE MY EYE! CB. then wake up lah!
then she go make ken! SHE PRESS KEN NOSE. KNS.
then both of us KAOBEI HER.
LOLS.
went to have our breakfast at ard 3pm. ha!
went ntuc to get the cookies premix but dun have.
we pei ken search for her premix powder at shop and sae, econ.
dun have, nvm.
exy took mrt home.
me went to ken hse.
ken saw her dad come back. then she say later can go another ntuc to buy premix powder.
wah lao. she dun wanna give up. yes yes, like what she've said. PERSERVERANCE.

then after getting her premix powder, baked cookies and pandan cake and had dinner.
watched sex and the city. then went home.
mum say my hp line is back.
wth?
waste my $36 on prepaid. dots.

guys, guys, guys.
no good impression on them.
sucksssssssssssssssssssssss.

idfyln,stimusmbdy?iwtkwiaty.aijapfytu?

heyhey hoho lala.

went to fill in the job application with exy yday.
waited soooooo long.
then they say will call us up for interview another day cos too busy at that point of time.
now i very sian. dont feel like working already.

then both of head down to astons to find ken and winnie.
actually wanna go 85 market but winnie overslept.
went winnie house to mj.
cos alvin wanna mj but he in the end never come cos he got work tml.
then!
we 4 play lor.
then i miss wendy so much!
cos usually wendy will play then i only play when short of 1 player.
lols. i lose, only won 1 time.how pathetic?
and i do stupid thing lah, cant really rmb.haha.
so tired so more. waiting for my turn i can sleep! serious.
while playing, i tell them abt my mum funny thing about TALKING COCK.
HAHA. next time then i type for you wendy.haha share share mah.
then finally finishhhhhh! like so happy can.
then 3 of them lie on the bed while i sitting infront of the computer then we watch kungful panda, halfway i fall asleep on the chair. lols.
then i think they got call me, but i already sleep liao. then suddenly i heard so i woke up and go to the bed and sleep beside exy. its a very heng thing but also sway.

why?
luckily i never sleep beside you ah ken!
if not i will hate you man!
cos you snoreeeeeeeeeee~ HAHA.
but that exy also sama-sama lah.
sometimes take the blanket! then i cover "SO" LITTLE.
freezing cold.
my experience of sleeping over with ppl, not tt good eh.
always steal blanket! eeeyerrr.

then heng, when winnie woke up for work she turn off aircon.
then on the fan then i go turn it off.
cos im so cold.
then after a while soooooooooooooooo HOT.
i think ken go on the fan.
hahah.

ken woke me up, cos she's late for her lesson for the ship stuff.
exy playing game.
then we faster lor. go eat then home.
wanted to sleep longer but cannot lah. she's alr so late.
somemore at west coast. so far. somewhere we will never go. lols.

we are going for camping later at night.
four of us and alvin.
winnie's gg to bring beehoon and maybe muffins.
exy- boiled crabmeat, dogs and chilli?
ken- snacks.
me- fried dory fish with sweet and sour chilli sauce with onions.(mum cook)
lols.

my mother nagging nowwwwww.
hen cao ah!
bye.

pontang pontang pontang SCHOOL!!

sometimes,
i really think that god is watching over me.
feeling the way im always feel.
after months, by just looking at the weather it tells how im feeling.
i won't be able to see god.
i dont know whats god gender is, from what i read is that god has no gender. if i never remember wrongly.

okay, i shall go visit grandma tomorrow.
suddenly thought of her.
shall tell her im baking muffins, gonna give her some.
can this cheer her up? and make her get well soon?
mummy say she got fever again.
im starting to worry eh.

i feel like having a religion.
talking to god seems to be good.
he cant say out your problems, he can be trusted.
he listen to your prayers.
not one, but everyones.
give you the strength to move on when you needed?
i think i need the strength now.
nevermind.
shall find out more bout more religion.

soon everyone is going to be busy with their own things.
really.
so to me, people seems to be leaving me.
wendy left.
joey going NS in july.
raiyan going NS for 6 months next monday!
whos going to talk to me?
everyone is going to be busy after the holidays.
then very fast, im graduating.
then this time, who will stay with me?

friends come and go.
but some leave footprints behind but did not stay.

okay, time for chanting.
fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkkkk...............
fuck off.
Amen.

FOR PHNG PHNG.

hello. i miss wendy. all of us miss her.
the way she bid goodbye left a big impact on all of us.
thanks huh POON TI! haha.
after sending her off, everyone so emo.
then we went to the cocoa tree. buy chocolate.
haha we need some chocolate to make ourselves happy.

AWWW...

ken i think you are crying lor, dont pretend pretend ahhhhh.oh please,nono, dont try to explain. you think we dont know yr pattern ah.

after that, we played the rule game, winnie change the rule to speaking of any languages but not eng or chi.so we speak mixture of languages. some even dont exists.

then winnie got the change rule card agn!so change rul again lor.at first, she want all of us to slap wendy one time.hah! but nv lah. then ask wendy to say bye to us in diff language. then winnie go teach wendy the "throw yr mother old shoes" vulgarities, then she say to me. damn it! somemore i hate that chao hai thing. i think they dont know.

twister time again, this time is around 5 plus going 6am. winnie and alvin went home alr.

exy trying to take advantage of wendy before she leaves. lols.

yes ahhh! i did it! yay.sweet*

exy big ass. (to me, she have no butt)

POOTTTTT! *SMELLY LAH EXY.

some words from exy to wendy.(but is from zihui imagination)

wendy, without you with me, this is how im going to be. so..so..please come back. =''(

______________________________________________

DANCING TIME! THE WORSE DANCE EVER! STAY TUNE..WEEEWOOWEE.*PUKE.

___________________________________

HERE COMES THE 1ST MISS KENASAI FROM SINGAPORE.*SLAPS*

MISS WENDY PHNG WEI LING AKA MISS POON TI PONG WHY LENG

____________________________________________

the duck dance that kaixin always dance. lols. but her butt no feather like the duck.hah.

___________________________________

FUNNIEST!

MR Q- JOLIN SAI FEI FEI

Okay, finally finish!! shall not upload wendy unglam pics.haha.this post took me 5 hours?

the longest post i ever post. the time. 5 hours. damn.but its for you wendy. remember all this times yeah? like i have said in the cup for you, dont count the miles between us, just count the smiles between us. oh remember to keep the flags kay. you know why exy flag is the singapore one? cos i ask ken to lquid away the japan flag and draw singapore flag. cos she's in sg and u are at NZ. hahah.cute eh?*puke. alright, we are waiting for you to be back for steamboat kay. ken is waiting for you to be her ah sam, bev is waiting for you to go sun-tanning with her. winnie is waiting for you to go shopping tgt. exy is waiting for you to sleepover at her house cos her mum not at home.kaixin is waiting for you to go clubbing.im waiting for you to come back and celebrate our birthday tgt. WE MISS YOU LAH. LOVE YOU MANY MANY. <3

lastly, fuck you lah. why never online? we wait for so long!lols. jk lah. maybe u are tired already. alright, really hope that our friendship will not stop here. so faster come back. ="(

im so dead now.
HOW?
i cant do anything now.
so hopeless.
just keeping my mouth shut.
i only can think of you quietly.
and doing things quietly.
if u have your happiness already then i dont know if i should feel happy or not.
maybe i should.
fuck it.
maybe i should just fuck off lah.
dont like to feel this way.
so sour. ~.~

anyway, grandma was admitted to the hospital last night.
she got a serious fever and flu the othe day.
then yesterday, again her feet/leh was swollen like last time again.
if im not wrong, it got to do with the liver/kidney? some parts of the body lah.
my grandpa is a weirdo.
but whatever man.
went grandma house few days back.
she have aged so much! just 3 months?
she slim down so much. no teeth. she wear fake one lah.
then my grandpa also aged alot.
omg. scary eh.
whatever it is, grandma get well soon!

omgomgomgomgomg.
suddenly i feel so sad.
feel like crying.
feeellllll so sad......
hais.
hao xinku.
=(

tag me leh people.

i fell down yesterday!
after saying goodbye to doreen and mich.
the position is like push-up position.
haha.
damn paiseh!
somemore behind got so many people!
den i faster get up and laugh all the way!
damn painful can?i pretend to cry, cos i laugh till got tears,then i bluff them !
haha, then they dont cry! then i just open my hands! HAHA BLUFF U ONE.
WALK OFF.
alright, i have a very big blue-black on my knee cap now!
damn painful.
im having blue blacks everywhere.
help me rub!
i miss you.
once in a blue moon.
yesterday and today got blue moon, you know?
haha.

hey!
guess what?
i finally pay off my library fines.
i never want to waste my money to pay off the fines but today,
i did it cos i wanted to borrow a book.
you know the book is about what?

ISLAM 101 questions and answers.
very nice to read can?
i have already read 40 pages in few hours?
when im suppose to study my business law for the test tml.
lols.

i want to know the reason.
please tell me.

i hope you are not the one i think about.

im starting to get the facts right already.
thats very annonying.
its better for me to believe it.
then making the same mistakes again.

i want camping....
say this since dont know when.
few months already.

money money money..
what's so funny?
money, where are you?
can the sky drop me some?
then someone shall sing me, dream dream dream...
haha, it only reminds me of bev.
but wait, whats the title of that song?

ho hO HO!
IM BACK!
BUT NOT TODAY.
TIRED LAH.
BYE.

hoho, school reopens.
new classmates.
i miss my old class.
my class got ALOT of malays.
damn.
like only got 8 chinese?
around there.
okay, costing is boring lah.
though i slept alot already but still feel sleepy when attending that lesson.

just now in bus 135 was like talking to juan.
i asked her whether if today is the 16th of april.
she said yes.
then i say to her, its one year that i know her already.
then blahhhhhhhhh.
alright, just keep moving man.
dont stop.
dont fall back.
why do i feel so sour.
lols, just memories flashing back lah~

humans are weird.
when they have it, they tend to complain and whine about it.
but when they lost it, they also continue complaining and whine about it.
humans, humans, humans.
hard to understand.

hope this last year is gonna be a good one.
after this, then goodbye everyone.

OMG.
FUCK.
I HOPE TO SEE HER TOMORROW!
pleaseeee, please please...


okay, i think i better change rom stop scolding vulgarities to continue scolding.
cause i think i just cant stop.
damn it.
lols.

i cant forget the way she look man!
tmd.
si angmoh.
SHE'S SOOO WOW.


oh i cut my hair already!
damn i look like AH WANG! lols.
yes, ah wang the bowl hair toot toot guy.
only when i clip up my hair during work.
and i keep acting like him.
lols. the female version.
i regret cutting lahhhhhhhh. its like shit!
time to wait for my hair to grow.
HAISSSS.

i had a GOOD SLEEP LAST NIGHT!
FINALLY!
=)

of course!
medicine is the help!
and im sick!
lols.

im gonna stop eating western and china food.
kept eating.
feel like vomiting. puke.
too much of pork. MUST CUT DOWN!
im quite halal remember? HAHA, AS IF.

i think im having fever.
waking up and i feel my head is so heavy.
shake my head, its PAINFUL!
my breathe is so hot.
cant find my thermometer.
so i assume im having fever.
hah, feli say maybe im thinking too much. lols.
assume, assume, assume
everyone just like to assume things.
dont you?

my big auntie come and find me!
very wah lao eh.

exy send me a photo of kaixin.
very erxin and ugly.
haha.
LOOK! TAAAA-DAHH! KAIXIN!!LOLS.

SO STUPIDDDDDDDDD.

so tell me when will you stop all this shit?
tell me tell me tell meeee nowwwwwww.
you know it yet you are doing this.
whats controlling you now?
your mind? your heart?
your mind controlling your heart?
your heart controlling your mind?
which?
i thought you were okay from the start.
where did all the effort you paid gone to now?
so please go away.
dont step into any part of my life now.
i want a good sleep.
not waiting till late in the night and force myself to sleep.
not waking up every now and then.
not seeing you in my dreams.
not waking up next morning and the same routine start.
it sucks.
you're nothing, nothing to her.
dont you understand?
im just passerby.
your feelings, your life, whatever that is happening,
she wont even bother.
im always guessing from the start.
loving you is so tiring.
you never like explaining things to me.
i bet you dont even think of how i feel.
your insensitivity.
im always thinking for you and ....
do you even know?
i bet you dont.
and i realised i did not think for myself.
maybe this is why i will get so much hurt.
im simple, im easily contented.
i want it simple.
everyone like things to be simple.
but simple things are hard to achieve it.
its complicated.
why when things can be simple you wanna make it so complicated?
this is life eh?
simple life.
you happy, i happy, everyone happy.
thinking back.
because of you,
i have lost someone who is precious to me.
the things she said, left a big impact on me.
unexpected,
thats one harsh word i never expect i would ever receive it in my life.
at that moment, i kept to myself and beared the pain inside me.
you dont know anything about it.
but things are fine now.
i tried my best in everything.
yes everything.
people around me can see it.
i tried so hard that i didnt even realise until im told.
when you are weak, im weak too.
but you dont know.
and i pretend to be strong and stand by you.
so now im just trying to find back myself.
the one who is good at pretending.
yes, pretend. fake you may say that.
but isnt that way better?
zihui be strong.
people say you will be stronger everytime after you fall.
will i?
or its just a saying that you wont care so much in future?
i seems to be much happier before this right?
yes, you are much happier.
she said.
felt sad at that moment.
i wonder to myself last night,
when i say something funny i encounted recently,
i was smiling at the outer but how do i feel inside?
i realised its no feeling.
just laugh for the sake of laughing.
dont really like to talk now.
doing things by forcing.
forcing, how bad.
the weather like always following the way i feel.
how cute.
but no sunshine of course.
how weird.
once theres a person who understand you so much and talk so much with you,
just dont seem to know who you are anymore and theres a big gap the next day.
just like strangers.
i did learnt many things from you.
thanks for it.
thank you for the memories.
thank you for asking me to cook barley, i've learnt it.
thank you for teaching me how to reply people, hmm, huh, orh, is it? really?then?
thank you that stupid morning wake up method.
thank you for everything.
you asked me not to stop talking to you the previous time,
i didn't.
now you were the one who stop.
im the one sad over here. fuck it.
yes, you are hard to understand.
and i dont understand you anymore.
when do you say the things and really meant it?
this time round, you said friends.
yes friends.
see i told you friends are just bullshit.
i dont deny i miss you, very much indeed.
i can even forget about what you said.
but whats the point?
whatever i have done,
you dont seems to appreciate it.
when you thank for the present and said you really appreciate it,
i dont want it.
cause i want you to appreciate me but not the present.
i have you in my heart but...
whatever.
though we dont contact anymore,
i wish you all the best in what you are trying to do now.
i may not know what it really is but im not that stupid.
if you hate me for appearing once in your life and made your wrong choice, im sorry.



last but not least,
thank you for hurting me huh.

TICK TOCK ..TICK TOCK.. TICK TOCK..
the time is passing so slowly.
soooooo S L O W . . .

its not good.
its happening.
now.

i saw you two days ago.
you were smiling very happily.
your laughter, your voice, everything.
we used to be like last time.
but..

its in my dreams.

there are so many times i wanted to know what/how you are doing and listen to your voice.
but i keep reminding myself about what you have said to me.
it holds me back from calling/msg you.

you used to be my sunshine,
but you are my rain now.



imubadly.

im sorry.
im sorry to my friends.
to make you worry so much for me.
thanks for everything.
being there for me when i needed accompany.
hopefully, one day i'll be fine.
not hopefully but it will, just that no one know when it will come.
im sorry for myself too.

hoping things will be better but things turn the opposite.
you made me pin up my hope high and trash it.
not once. but a few times.
you are so cruel this time.

you only realise till now.
isn't that a little too long?
i dont know whether you are speaking from your heart or what.

friends. you said this is what we are all along.
FUCK YOU.
though we didnt talk much but all the things you said is already fucking hurting.

All my plans for you have now been thrashed.
i will not use my plan for you to someone else.
it was suppose to be yours but you didnt give me the chance to do it.

how stupid am i?
i still want you back.
i asked you whether if you can not go.
you thought i was asking you not to go home.
wtf.

COME ON ZIHUI!
friends have been trying to knock some senses into you!
but everyone knows who can help her.
me, myself and i.

yesterday was the worst day i ever had.

byebye wendy!
take care.
dont eat too much when you're there.
i'll miss you but not as much as someone. lols.

dont take me for granted,
i said.
they understand it.

i dont know whats the problem now.
but i have been watching tv about eating disorder.
yesterday, the net isnt working at all so all i can do to watch tv.
watched tyra banks show"addicted to thin"
this girl is thin and wants to be more thin and therefore she took a drug dont know call coacine?
forgot how to spell.
anw, to like help her in losing weight. and she feel good everytime after she go to the toilet after vomiting.
one day, she jus fainted outside her house, she nearly died from that.

today, was on my way to work, saw your message that u dont feel well, wanting to vomit and faint.
im scared. very.
i was so worried and afraid that you might faint anytime.
what if you are like the girl i saw on tv?passed out and nearly died from that.
its just a "what if".

http://www.healthyplace.com/Communities/Eating_Disorders/peacelovehope/laxatives.html

giving an whatever look now?
cant be bothered?

you are not fat.
really.
you once said before,
love me for who i am.
yes, people love you for who you are,
but are you loving yourself?
doing this to your body.

maybe you have stopped taking now, i dont know.
but please dont take it anymore, alright?

yesyes, naggy.
then dont read.
i type what i want here.

its already 7.31am in the friday morning!
and i havent go to sleep.
ITS GOOD FRIDAY!
MAY PEACE BE WITH YOU!
=)





i dont feel ________________.
i doubt i will be able to do that.

so bored.
how bored?
very.

how come?
i dont know.
just feel very bored.
life seems to be meaningless.
so dull.

you light up my life.
you gave me hope.
lalala..

love is like the wind,
you can't see it,
but you can feel it.

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